3:57 PM•Monday, January 12, 2009
haiz..... fuck this.... my own fucking history repeats after 4 years of mugging... this is what i get... the same fucking feeling i get 4 years back.... dear god, what fuck have i done in my previous lifetime to undergo such tremendous defeat.... there goes my dream.... no more biomedical... no more life..... no more aviation... no more soul.....so what have i left with? my body?
fuck liao lo somemore chinese new year coming....sure kena fuck by my cousins... uncles....
Prediction...
uncles: haha ur fucking idoit son get only 16 for L1 R4 ar? noob fuck la see my son unlike urs....
his currently in hwa chong insitute lei...
Me: *shut up nth to say and can't say a fucking thing cause results are sooooo fucking bad...
My parents: * no face left * turn to stare at me.. and walk away angrily...
Me: can only be a shit in the eyes of them... turns away....
God:laughs at me? no idea ....(as a form of my new year present?)or * thinking of new ways to fuck me?
me : no idea what to do next... stones there....
My parents: *sign.... wondering why have they had such a child..... * regrets .regrets.
hm.. so lets see what i can go with my shit fucking results? ITE? go back sec 4? retake o level? go to hell? no idea.... some1 pls guide me...some1 pls give me something useful....
hm.. so which course will give me the chance?zzz
btw here's another stimulation for today when my parents heard my results when they get back....
Father: * opens the door and ask oh ya ja how's ur olevel results?(in a polite manner)
Me:er 16
Father: for L1 R5 ar?
Me: er... no...
Father: wah ccb fuck u la .... this yr new year confirm no face again... er ja pls la u knn fail me every major exams huh...last 4 years when u get ur PSLE reults also like that wah pcb la.... u make me no fucking face lei.... cb fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuckfuck !!!!!
* red face.
Me(thinking):zzz he's right.... i am such a shit in the family.....==.==hasn't done anything proud in academic...so far in my 16 years of living in earth..* face starts to fall off self esteem and soul runs away.... really no idea what to do...*'they decides to find a better body some with smarter brains...
*hopefully can dig a grave a hide there forever till my corpse get decomposed..
bye no will be able to helpp me..... only when my self esteem and my soul comes back.......
