7:17 AM•Tuesday, January 13, 2009
everything's changed... the once lively atmosphere i once had....disappeared (for some obvious reasons)those who believed in me in doing well... turns out to be a huge disappointment for both parties... well i suppose that after this piece of shit result..is advertised in the entire family tree...more will be changed... my life will also change... no fucking idea on how and what i'll become.... a tunnel that once had a source of light seems to be fading away.....all seems lost...
maybe mr N. was right i was distracted during the o year...he did drop many hints on........ given my standard to do well in both sides...is impossible... but what to do?i nvr listen... so this is the fucking punishment i get lo... to suffer and suffer and suffer.....a choice of stupid option..*regrets deeply...
my heart cracked....
my dreams shattered....
Satus:in an agony of hopeless grief... ;:(
wondering what can i do....
wondering what am i capable of....
wondering will the trust i once had stay...
wondering will i be able to stand up...
wondering what i'll be doing in the future...
everything's so bleak.. so faint...
A life of a so fucked earthling....fuck~~~
