10:20 AM•Friday, January 30, 2009
it's time to forget everything and start afresh.....
4:57 PM•Wednesday, January 14, 2009
zzz what fuck besides choosing the course that i can get into....no point grieving for the past anymore... life still has to get on.... i so swear that i will improve my shitty english which pulled me down =.=
BYE Aviation.... BYE Biomedical.... i shall meet you in my next lifetime.... Pls don't run away from me anymore..... I want U!!!!!!I love you....* kiss goodbye.. ;(
7:17 AM•Tuesday, January 13, 2009
everything's changed... the once lively atmosphere i once had....disappeared (for some obvious reasons)those who believed in me in doing well... turns out to be a huge disappointment for both parties... well i suppose that after this piece of shit result..is advertised in the entire family tree...more will be changed... my life will also change... no fucking idea on how and what i'll become.... a tunnel that once had a source of light seems to be fading away.....all seems lost...
maybe mr N. was right i was distracted during the o year...he did drop many hints on........ given my standard to do well in both sides...is impossible... but what to do?i nvr listen... so this is the fucking punishment i get lo... to suffer and suffer and suffer.....a choice of stupid option..*regrets deeply...
my heart cracked....
my dreams shattered....
Satus:in an agony of hopeless grief... ;:(
wondering what can i do....
wondering what am i capable of....
wondering will the trust i once had stay...
wondering will i be able to stand up...
wondering what i'll be doing in the future...
everything's so bleak.. so faint...
A life of a so fucked earthling....fuck~~~
3:57 PM•Monday, January 12, 2009
haiz..... fuck this.... my own fucking history repeats after 4 years of mugging... this is what i get... the same fucking feeling i get 4 years back.... dear god, what fuck have i done in my previous lifetime to undergo such tremendous defeat.... there goes my dream.... no more biomedical... no more life..... no more aviation... no more soul.....so what have i left with? my body?
fuck liao lo somemore chinese new year coming....sure kena fuck by my cousins... uncles....
Prediction...
uncles: haha ur fucking idoit son get only 16 for L1 R4 ar? noob fuck la see my son unlike urs....
his currently in hwa chong insitute lei...
Me: *shut up nth to say and can't say a fucking thing cause results are sooooo fucking bad...
My parents: * no face left * turn to stare at me.. and walk away angrily...
Me: can only be a shit in the eyes of them... turns away....
God:laughs at me? no idea ....(as a form of my new year present?)or * thinking of new ways to fuck me?
me : no idea what to do next... stones there....
My parents: *sign.... wondering why have they had such a child..... * regrets .regrets.
hm.. so lets see what i can go with my shit fucking results? ITE? go back sec 4? retake o level? go to hell? no idea.... some1 pls guide me...some1 pls give me something useful....
hm.. so which course will give me the chance?zzz
btw here's another stimulation for today when my parents heard my results when they get back....
Father: * opens the door and ask oh ya ja how's ur olevel results?(in a polite manner)
Me:er 16
Father: for L1 R5 ar?
Me: er... no...
Father: wah ccb fuck u la .... this yr new year confirm no face again... er ja pls la u knn fail me every major exams huh...last 4 years when u get ur PSLE reults also like that wah pcb la.... u make me no fucking face lei.... cb fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuckfuck !!!!!
* red face.
Me(thinking):zzz he's right.... i am such a shit in the family.....==.==hasn't done anything proud in academic...so far in my 16 years of living in earth..* face starts to fall off self esteem and soul runs away.... really no idea what to do...*'they decides to find a better body some with smarter brains...
*hopefully can dig a grave a hide there forever till my corpse get decomposed..
bye no will be able to helpp me..... only when my self esteem and my soul comes back.......
1:27 PM•Thursday, January 8, 2009
The day.. has finally came....to be happy or sad? must see result then know.... let's all hope for the best ;) *prays 100times * bows 100 times *kneels 100 times.... all for 1 cause....my results
12:37 PM•Saturday, January 3, 2009
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i have heard rumours that o level results will be released on the 9th jan..... omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg ..............................
12:50 PM•Friday, January 2, 2009
AHhhhhh... the day that every o level students are waiting for...is drawing near.. january.....
fears...,anxiety..., happyness..., sorrow, are all present in these scenes we are yet to experience
ahhh all i can hope is to desire for grades that i had once wished for.. and expected...
anyway let's not talk about these 1st.. the time for it will come and let's just wait patiently for it...... btw bolt's height is 1.96m =.= omg... how on earth can a 1.67m guy tries to win a 1.96m guy in sprinting.... all he takes is about 40 to 41 strides to hit 100m while the shortie.... about twice the amount... omg.. the frequency must like thripple fold la... sian.. seems abit no hope... maybe i will inject some cheetah DNA into my blood stream... hahah...
